I assume you have read my previous posts, I don’t wanna retell everything.

We went to my psychologist. First he went alone with her to talk, and after half an hour he got out and I came in.

I told my psychologist everything about why I needed to break up with him. She understood and helped me through it.

Then she let him in to talk, and I gave a long speech about the reasons why I had no choice but to end the relationship.

I thanked him for all the good moments, all the love he gave me, for being so sweet, and that I didn’t regret any of it. I told him that I still loved him and wanted nothing but all the best to him, and I don’t want him to die because of me. It was way longer than that but I’m just not in the mood for writing a lot.

He was visibly broken, almost crying, in silent the entire time. When I finally finished, the psychologist asked him to talk and he just said “no words” She told me that I was done for today and I left.

We are not 100% done yet, I need to take my things out of his house, and his family still wants to be in contact with me and I’m more than glad.

Is just… I wanted this, I had the chance to try to talk and fix everything, yet I ended it because I knew I needed to, he has hurt me for a long while after all, I don’t wanna be trapped with him, yet I feel so bad right now. I hope I did the right choice. I hope I don’t regret it. I’m sad and heartbroken. I Know he is even more heartbroken. But it needed to end. Yet I’m still sad about it. So sad. How long will I still be this sad?