Despite being with my wife for nearly half my life, I’ve never had penetrative sex. It was originally because my wife has severe anxiety about things going inside her, but to be honest there’s some hesitancy from me now as well. I’ve gotten very used to how we have sex and it doesn’t involve penetration.

We have a partner now and I think it’s something that they’d be open to, but I’m actually pretty nervous about the whole thing.

My desires were always fairly unconventional but the way my wife’s and my sex life has developed has really reinforced that. My wife is essentially 100% top at this point. They have no real interest in reciprocation. They’re on the ace spectrum so their enjoyment is different. Every once in a blue moon they’ll ask for something but it generally doesn’t end with them orgasming. All of that to say my main contribution to my sex life has just been becoming enjoyable to watch. I’m usually very vocal and squirmy. I whimper, beg, plead, cry, scream, etc. lol.

It was somewhat validating that one of the first times the three of us had sex together our new partner said they loved what I was doing and that it was definitely turning them on. I felt a lot of pressure to reciprocate for my wife for so long because I didn’t want to be one of those lazy partners who doesn’t do anything, but that’s sort of what my wife wants out of it. Letting go of that was difficult for me. So actually hearing from someone else tell me that what I’m doing is actually enjoyable meant a lot. Not that I ever doubted my wife, but, you know how things are. Like when a stranger compliments your outfit as opposed to someone you know well.

So, that would be the “confession”. I’d never describe myself as a virgin, but I’ve definitely never had traditional sex.

My wife and I opened our marriage to a third a few months ago. They’ve been living with us temporarily while they look for an apartment in the area. We have threesomes pretty regularly. It’s pretty amazing right now.

Like many people with ADHD my interests change every few weeks/months… I’ve been saying my technical muse left and my erotic muse has returned. I’ve began doing a few erotic roleplays online again. I got really into this hobby about a year ago but stopped around the time I got a job. (I had a lot of free time for a few months lol.) It’s been fun!

I’m really trying to pace myself. I took on way too many partners last time. At times I had maybe a dozen going at once. I got caught in this loop where when I was done writing replies and I wanted to keep writing I’d look for new partners. Over time the hobby stopped being something fun and became an obligation I dreaded doing. So I stopped. I’m trying to avoid that this time. Only take on maybe three maximum at a time. If even.

This has been something I’ve been interested in and actually why I logged into this account today. I’ve gotten back into text erotic roleplay a little but the only places I could ever find enough people interested in this is on Discord servers and on Twitter. When I check the #nsfwrp hashtag on Mastodon I see a handful of posts from a handful of users, but it’s not really at any sort of critical mass to be able to find folks (unless you and one of the few people doing it end up being a good match).

I don’t think labels are terribly important for anything other than making communication easier. That said, watching and being humiliated definitely feels like what most would call cuckoldry. But by other definitions, you might not be called a cuckold because you’re actively engaged in a sexual activity (regardless of context). Sometimes people use the term to just mean not being involved at all, like if your wife was cheating on you.

It doesn’t really matter what you call yourself here. It’s not like if what you are doing is technically cuckoldry if that suddenly means it is wrong. As long as everyone is consenting and enjoying themselves it doesn’t matter.

All that said, I think most people would call this cuckoldry lol.