Ah, I could give you a hug for this comment TW. I think perhaps you have dislodged something I wasn’t willing to admit to. It might be a coincidence that I started feeling abruptly unwell on Sunday, the day after I submitted my only job application so far, one I’d sat on doing for two weeks because I honestly felt like I was trying to be someone I wasn’t in order to do something I didn’t really want… the old work mask has faded off fully and I don’t feel like enough of a person yet to be back in the world, or at least that world…
I feel like I’ve already spent enough time relaxing/recovering, but I get the sense it’s no longer the type I need. Have overseas visitors all of next week but after that I must book in some external time out instead of allowing myself to be digested by my own juices. Maybe the high country. Thank you for the sage advice as always.
Ah, I could give you a hug for this comment TW. I think perhaps you have dislodged something I wasn’t willing to admit to. It might be a coincidence that I started feeling abruptly unwell on Sunday, the day after I submitted my only job application so far, one I’d sat on doing for two weeks because I honestly felt like I was trying to be someone I wasn’t in order to do something I didn’t really want… the old work mask has faded off fully and I don’t feel like enough of a person yet to be back in the world, or at least that world…
I feel like I’ve already spent enough time relaxing/recovering, but I get the sense it’s no longer the type I need. Have overseas visitors all of next week but after that I must book in some external time out instead of allowing myself to be digested by my own juices. Maybe the high country. Thank you for the sage advice as always.