Met a fellow 30something crossdresser and free software guy on Hinge. It seemed like a great fit. We met for coffee and talked for a few hours, then he told me he wasn’t gay and didn’t want to meet me again. For fuck’s sake. My ass won’t destroy itself. 🥵😭

Now that I’ve scrolled through 1000+ profiles and determined that they aren’t gay enough for me (I don’t really go for masc/closeted/straight-looking people and I try to limit the age range to 25-40s) I really need to figure out what the fuck part of this community I’m overlooking or not understanding. I’m willing to drop out of college and move for the right relationship. Ever since I became a gay femboy, things have gotten harder.

ripped the tag off the mattress.

Me and my girlfriend woke up Saturday and after making her cum she asked if she should get the strap-on. I got on my back and when she came back she told me she wanted me doggy. My normally shy and sweet girlfriend was pulling my hair, smacking my ass, and calling me her good little slut as she fucked the shit out of me! First time she did so

My partner and I picked up one of the strap-less strap-ons, the ones that kinda “dock” in the vagina. Unfortunately, we couldn’t get a good angle on it at all. It kept being way too close to her body to properly penetrate me in any of the positions we tried. Alas!

Still had a nice time otherwise as I wore some lacy pink lingerie and my cage. Had to wait for her to get home but needed to be ready at any time, so I sat like that with my knockoff Aneros in and watched some femdom videos (mostly u/Malice_Jade who I love dearly). She got home and sat on my face, came once, then we tried the new strap. Gave up after a bit and just resorted to playing with my Aneros and edging me. I didn’t ask for permission to cum early enough, so my orgasm was halfway ruined. Still loved it.

I’ve been quite sick, and once I was mostly better I managed to pull a muscle in my back, so no real naughty fun to share.

Someone posted a regimen for increasing your semen volume. It’s pretty similar to a set of supplements I was taking last year. I restarted just a few days ago and it’s already definitely making a difference :-)

I also take a few saucy pictures/gifs I might share later this week.

Went bit overboard going raw and now it’s more anal and oral (not in that order!) while pussy recovers.

Yesterday evening I jerked off to some gay porn, and last night I dreamed about dick all night and I’ve been horny through the day. I watched a bit of porn after evening meal and was enjoying it a lot, but I just wanted to be fucked so I called my FWB and told him that and promised to spread as much precum on my hole as I could manage while he was on his way, and asked him to come round and fuck me over the sink in the bathroom - an idea some of the porn I watched yesterday gave me - the bottom looked like he was having a great time. We’ve messed around in the bathroom and certainly had a fair bit of fun messing around in the shower, but he’s never fucked me over the sink so it’s a new one on us and, the idea got him round my place in no time, already tenting his trousers and I was certainly ready for him. We rushed to the downstairs bathroom, too horny to wait for the stairs, and he tried first one then two fingers on my already fairly sloppy hole and declared me ready. It’s been years and years we’ve been FWB, but it always blows my mind when he pushes himself inside me. The fatness, the fullness, there’s nothing like it. I don’t own a dildo, and whilst I’ve been tempted by household objects when I’m really horny (and experimented when I was young - I was lucky not to hurt myself), all I really want is his dick, so I either finger myself, which is never satisfying, or get him to bring his dick round, which is. We both worry that if I got a dildo I would crave his cock less, and he likes that I get desperate and crazy for his dick.

Anyway, we were stood up at the sink, and the angle is quite different from normal (I’ve usually got my knees up when he’s fucking me) and it felt like he was jabbing in a whole new direction - it doesn’t make any logical sense at all, but it felt like he was going to jab through the back of my cock and fuck it from the inside. I went through all the sensations, feeling him prodding the walls of my insides and it was really really intense. I was (again) sure I was going to cum just with the fucking, and I was shaking like crazy, legs unsteady, mind swirling madly, and my cock was leaking so much really really thick precum all over the sink and I was just desperate to be impaled on him more and more with his fat cock tugging not just at my hole but on my ass cheeks as well, which was amazing when I could feel him moving my cheeks, and jabbing, jabbing, jabbing like mad on my insides. Fuck.

But in the end I was shaking too much and could barely stand anymore, and we gave up on the bathroom sink went back to an old favourite position with him on the couch and me lowering myself onto him. I was thinking that if I controlled the pace now I could make myself cum on his cock without touching myself. I don’t know why I always think it’s going to happen this time, because it never does, but we never tire of trying. I didn’t have much strength or energy to do a lot, and his horniness took over a bit and I just held myself above him for a while and let him have his way with my bum. He was just pushing in and out, in and out, and in the end I just shut my eyes and there was nothing in the world apart from the feelings in my bum and his cock sliding slick and smooth in and out in and out. It was like there was just the the skin on the inside of me and his cock and nothing else at all. I was lost in a world of just being his cocksleeve and feeling his cock sliding in and out, in and out of it. This got me even more turned on and I really wanted to cum, so I played with my mainly soft but drenched in precum cock and got semi hard all the time fixated on his cock sliding so smoothly in my entrance and up my ass. I came like that and it was so super intense. I was spent. He stayed in me a bit but he was desperate for release and my bum couldn’t take any more, so I got off him and played with his dick, smearing the foreskin with all the precum and rubbing it in my hand until he came great big gobs of cum into and all over my hands. I love that dick.

We weren’t far from the downstairs bathroom and I used loo roll to wipe the cum off his dick and the slime from around my bum.

If you read last my escapades from the end of the week before last (https://lemmynsfw.com/comment/7879140), you’ll know he was super gentle playing with my bumhole, but very much not this time, I’m already a bit achy and sore. My commute’s a bit longer than usual tomorrow morning, but I’m not sure I’ll regret it much.

I’ll probably get him to do this again. It was really intense for me.

@joshoff@lemmynsfw.com @joshoff, I wanted you to know I got fucked again, and how.

I jerked off on a Shane Diesel rubber cock. It made me cum a ton!

I decided to post again after a long break. (Check out c/cocks) I had some great sex with my wife since the baby recovery and that was very exciting. I railed her like a fucking machine and it was very hot. Otherwise, I have been trying to keep my wandering eyes to myself otherwise.