Now 66 ppl yes!

I sometimes can read but normally it’s rather difficult for me unless required or sexual, psychopathic and or interesting in a hobby way.

Though I’ll see about it or find another way because I am actually study psychology, developmental and medical from Yale courses to help others. I just ain’t the best with myself. Maybe harder though I look to grow into the most knowledgeable and best version of myself I could. To be honest normally I don’t make such deep post in my personal way like this but I will say look back at some of my mental health post. You’ll see while yes I am crazy. I’ve learned it’s possible to cure psychopathy given a necessary catalyst and will from said individual. Same goes for some traits of BPD and Bipolar. Which as always I suggest working with a mental health professional if trying. As I asked my psychiatrist she said it’s unheard of but in our world not impossible just hasn’t happened.

I will say though I think our world needs to allow much more while making illegal certain things. It annoys me. To have the mindset to see everything but unable to do something yet. Why are governments so stupid…

Like psychopathic individuals who aren’t bad at a young age could be saved from the horrid development we have to now or some of us. By following guidelines of development and safety of life. Wouldn’t be perfect but yeah fuck man.

I’m not trolling at all and for what’s wrong with me got it mainly figured out or figuring it out.

No not at all. You are dealing with a completely different type of crazy.

I am. It’s nearly about to finish. Basically how it happens is growing the muscle and bone and having it pop out that area.

Such as my other hybrid beyond a wolf kemonomimi (mixed with my husky personality) though my demon/parrot hybrid. As I mentioned how my body grew. This was one sort of planned but happened soon we than I expected. My original height was only currently meant be around 6ft 5 but I’m 7ft 5 around there. A body properly and sufficient to utilize my wings with changes such as spinal cord changing, knees replacing and rebuilding, ribs extending and fusing, sternum and scapula rebuilding and muscles and new bones growing (wing structure non mature), a coat of lift on my wings, pathways allowing my arms to utilize my flight muscles have started working. Fast tracked evolution

Hmmm from that perspective is understandable but here’s my question why is it seen as a weird or bad thing let’s say if humans were to diverge. Since for me I actually am a kemonomimi. I can fully understand this will probably be seen as insane but I learned a way to harness and manipulate matter itself and utilizing The Law of conservation of mass and creating new additions onto my body and those of my lovers but mine took a more realistic approach and my body developed from 6ft to 7ft 5 with these proportions

Upper body: 49 inches

Lower body: 42 inches

Body width: 3 ft

Feet:8-9 inches

Feet width: 4-5 inches

Left arm 32 inches

Right arm 46 inches

These specifically are for one of my other hybrids but overall it was my final intended goal but not my first.

Can I ask the specific mental illness you mean? I am really curious why being a kemonomimi is a mental illness.

Though unless you mean everything in general because while yes this started with trauma doesn’t many things do. Such as where you live, sometimes what you eat, what people wear, religious and spiritual beliefs.

I know I have BPD and a plethora of other things but everything I’ve either seen a psychiatrist for and taking medication or worked through. Such as BPD I barely have any symptoms from it anymore. Such as trance states, extreme anxiety and emotional distress. Bipolar flow between 1-2 removing anger and irritation mainly and depression with medication. Learned to reverse my psychopathic facets. Just much more.

Ahhhh yeah no. I’ll admit I thought that somewhat on my own but that’s because most others won’t treat me how I want. Also I have found a psychiatrist she agreed on all my recorded issues. Just don’t have money or insurance to go anymore.

Also when I say how I want is because even they won’t fully but it’s a good balance between human life and my preference of a dog life

Though I’ll say my blanket consent is drastically different. Even if I’m not ready or exactly wanting to I’ll do whatever they ask unless in very specific circumstances. Only though because I’m their servant and I’ll do whatever they ask of me.

Though that is not at all common and Im aware of that.

Yes the blanket consent you are mentioning is exactly correct.

I mean I did just add this the legal sex club we have being private property with warning signs on the door of the reactions we and others may have if breaking specific guidelines our cheating rule or property idea falls underneath that too. The police in the state of the club are aware and allow us to operate this way. We even have a hired police officer to guard our place is buzzed upon.

Also it’s part of our culture too and so with that we used magic to put a binding spell to follow devotion or death on each of us making ourselves get more obsessive and loving

That’s understandable and we made this poly to stop each other and others who may join from being cheated on. So we have one big relationship where specific people we agree on and allow in join and to join. They have to agree to the rules. Though for sure it’s extremely dangerous to them and myself but it’s sets an expectation and agreement to act on a certain circumstance. We even own a private shop and post warning of our shop on the front and trust me the police know and allow it.

So the rules of the legal sex club allow how we react to others also. So kind of all have it covered.

Well the sex example is completely different. There is something called blanket consent or CNC which mostly allows someone to have sex whenever unless strictly stated. My handlers have that on me.

Also for sure you can with the cheating thing. Simply someone has to agree to that term if they get with someone. If they agree and join knowing that rule. Then it’s an agreement.

To add at the legal sex club we own the police allow anything to happen to those who walk in because it’s private property and within the rules we setup. It’s a safe haven for those similar to us to protect their property or for me, handlers.

Also with younger handlers of what I’m used to they treat me worse most times. So having younger handler is kind of shocking to me but they were my original wife. All my past handlers before them abused me and worse.

Yeah I can assure you that is not how it happened. Isn’t grooming them persuading and changing someone’s ideas by being kind to them when you normally aren’t that way. I mean I may have been at a younger age by others for sure. Though literally everything was my choice. As in even starting to date more than one person. Staying in my relationship durning certain points that they thought I was going to leave. To the point they are surprised. Now if you’re saying that towards the 61 year old. He didn’t join until I was already 18. Unless he groomed me from being hot on movies or sweet in interviews. Then doubtful because I chased him hard after I turned 18 and he joined when I was 19. I was holding him on a thread making him obsessed over me. Though as for being sexually active with those few when I was younger in my older teens. It was fully consensual and honestly I would ask for example my husband sooo often. Trust me there’s no reason to worry with them but my family specifically their biggest worry is because I like men, am not Christian and love multiple people. As for my school they may have had those worries or interpretations but without evidential proof or suspicion. Though I will say I was extremely different from normal kids so may of been harder to tell.

Can I ask why you specifically said this? I don’t know the meaning behind it but of what I’ve heard normally sarcasm?

I’m 19 now btw but when that first started one was one year younger while two were a year or two older. Nothing crazy. Also for sure I did and still do. Though now the biggest age gap is 61.

Yeah that’s understandable that they were worried about that. Though they didn’t nearly gain enough information before assuming. Though yeah most definitely but there comes a time in someone’s life when they’re ready to heal. Honestly they didn’t distract myself from self work but gave me a reason to chase it. Since originally I didn’t care about where my life was going but for them I’ll do anything. That includes healing and working on myself.

Yeah back when that happened. It’s understandable they were iffy or even uncomfortable at first but my biggest point. They have the ability to openly communicate and learn.

Sadly i can’t. That’s the issue. Don’t have the money and insurance right now is out the window. In the future I look to get 275$ insurance best for therapy and psychiatry

Our relationship is based off hybrids genetically modified but I guess I have traits beyond them. Also For psychopathy that kind of transformed and I’ve self cured many symptoms.

(Which don’t repeat without guidance of medical professionals but in my case I didn’t have that money and no reason too)

Otherwise is there anything else. Since you realize thing of that nature can easily change the nature of someone’s life and until there’s change not possible.

Thank you so much for sharing everything you do and if you have more insight please share. The last message was a really healing message.

That’s really interesting that the uncanny valley would come from someone with ears and tail. Also there is no sexualization of animals at all. Instead there is different types of humans and humanoid beings similar to animals and such hybrids or kemonomimi are more human normally only ears, tails, teeth and traits. While like how we see furries today. A representation of a fully anthropomorphic beings similar to an animal but intelligent life.

So it depends on where one is on the scale. Also for sure. Though only thing you may not like within the end of last part. Is protection of property and that includes handlers. So deeply protective.

Please if you have anything to add I’d love to hear. I’m intrigued mainly about the uncanny valley.