Well thats it shows over its official. Im publicly out at this point. Finally told therapist, dressing girlmode most times leaving the house (even if its stealth girl) and have a gender pathways appt in 1 month from now (which i have confirmed now that ill WALK OUT WITH HRT😍😍😍)
It feels great! But im still scared of the rest of what comes. I wont lie, seeing the hate and outright violence against trans people right now makes me wanna go back into the closet and lock the door forever. But im trying my best to be brave.
But most of the important people to me know now. My daughter is the last one i need to talk with.
My therapists reaction “honestly a lot of stuff youve talked about makes alot more sense now” 😨 like gee thanks? I guess its good you were paying attention this whole time lol.
She also changed my gender in my chart, asked if i wanted my name changed but i told her no im not ready for that yet.
But it went well, and heres hoping the future is bright for all of us ❤️❤️
Im still scared But ill get through this Ill be strong
Hello Brooke, good bye Zakk(🤢🤮)
❤️❤️❤️
If you dont mind me asking what state are you in?
I know it sucks sometimes but remember its a marathon not a race, things will happen when theyre meant to (not in a religious way 🤮). I feel like thats what doctors should be doing, idk where you are but here most of the time theyll take what i say at face and either come up with something or at least have an idea of which diagnostic route to take. Atleast in my experience so fsr. But i am going to start hrt soon soooooo yknow. Disregarding medical transphobia, women receive lesser care in general compared to men. We’ll see what happens i suppose.
It was scary today but im ready for it. Youll get there too! Or figure yourself out in a different way than me or whatever happens! It’ll be wonderful, and im rooting for you!
I have felt high basically ever since therapy lol
Ohio. The memes aren’t far off, we have some nice state parks but that’s about it.
I’ve never been good at marathons, but the second best time to start training is now…
I can imagine it felt great after therapy! Having people listen and take what you say seriously is always good to have.
I’m sure I’ll figure out something, I live in the southern half of the state, but at least the capital is smack in the center, so I’m not driving 6 hours if I have to go that far…
Ohios not great from what i hear. Sorry that not everyone in power is on the same page and some of them would rather live with their heads firmly implanted in their ass
Yesterday was craaazyyyy, i honestly felt fucking high.
She asked me my pronouns?! Ive never been directly asked that before it was a weird warm feeling lol
She asked me about changing gender and name like wtf my anxiety said youd be a monster about this why you be so cool??
The thing that is REALLY sticking with me is her saying alot of my stuff makes more sense now. Like she might as well have said" yeah i figured" not that its a bad thing! But like i was faking being a boy you were supposed to believe it and tell me im good at acting not tell me about the hunch you had the whole time lmao. At least shes been listening 🥰
But yeah, its day fucking 1 girls lets
Day 1 of my new life
Day 1 of not lying to myself and everyone else
Day 1 of getting to finally love myself, which i thought was fucking impossible
I dont see a world where i go back❤️