Courtney (she/her/they)

Hello lovelies, I am a (trans)Woman who is still in the process of discovering herself!

I have been working up the courage to be who I am for so long, I am excited to be figuring things out.

Pre-HRT, pre-fashion-sense, and pre-confidence.

Any and all tips and advice from more experienced women are welcome!

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Cake day: April 10th, 2026

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  • Ohio. The memes aren’t far off, we have some nice state parks but that’s about it.

    I’ve never been good at marathons, but the second best time to start training is now…

    I can imagine it felt great after therapy! Having people listen and take what you say seriously is always good to have.

    I’m sure I’ll figure out something, I live in the southern half of the state, but at least the capital is smack in the center, so I’m not driving 6 hours if I have to go that far…


  • Idk who that Zeek person is, but I’m so happy for you Brooke! Super jealous about your coming appointment! I want to ask a few of the girls from the trans-formers group I know where they went for their appointments, I’m hoping I can find someone closer than the state capital…

    I’ve been trying to girlmode whenever going out even if I have to leave the house and come back in boy clothes… Today I had to go to the store so I had my bra, some small silicone fillers, a compression cami on, and a “unisex” t shirt (that says “ice can gargle my balls”) with basketball shorts over everything. I had a few people staring at me from the side since I’ve been wearing my hair in a decidedly femenine fashion or putting it in a high ponytail… Other than being called a f* one day by some Douchebags at the park, Its been fairly smooth sailing since I don’t go to densely occupied spaces often.

    I’m not looking forward to talking to a doctor, I’d rather they just listen to me and do what I want rather than poke and prod and question to find out if I fit their tiny Checkboxes and if they decide I’m not miserable enough then I don’t get to be who I am… Lol I should probably be in my own therapy

    As usual I’m wishing I could pack up and move to PNW 😭

    Thank you for sharing, as usual it’s a nice inspiration and motivation for future goals!




  • I haven’t been specifically browsing for too long (I still have my old startrek.website account of a certain transporter chief but I haven’t touched it much this past week or two) but I have never seen anything less than total support from everyone to all the posters!

    The one Pic I have posted everyone was super supportive, mostly discussed the body text and random things. I definitely am looking forward to posting myself in full girl mode. I want to feel more like myself before I do that though, if that makes sense…




  • My father in law used to wear contacts.

    He would often forget them and wear them to bed, sometimes for days, and then when he went to do things in the morning, sometimes one would be missing.

    This went on for several years and one day he brings up some “minor discomfort” in his left eye.

    After some deduction, a lot of eye rolling and tons of pain, they managed to get most of the pieces to about 10-12 contacts behind the left eye, and 4-5 in the right eye.

    They sometime ripped and seprted into different spots around his eye and he apparently was in a massive mount of pain before actually speaking up about it.

    I had an eyelash grow toward my eyeball once and I thought I was dying…






  • Oof. Imposter syndrome is real.

    I keep having self-doubts but I just keep reminding myself of the things I would say to my partner when they were considering getting mobility aids: “people who don’t need them, don’t even consider if they’d be better with them” and “if you still want the thing in 6 months then it’s not shiny object syndrome it’s an actual desire”

    Similarly, “cishet AMAB dont even consider transitioning, certainly not at all hours of the day in every circumstance regardless of kinks, suggestions, or outside influence” and since I’ve been wanting this since I was 14, I think it’s safe to say it’s something I really want.

    If you’ve gotten to this point (assuming I recognize your user from a post earlier this past week) then you probably shouldn’t be worried about being an imposter. Of course, I can’t definitively tell anyone their own path of self-discovery, but I hope that is a little reassuring.







  • I basically used my off-hand to pull my skin a little bit to help with the pencil, and rested my dominant hand as much as possible on my cheek. My eyelid moved a bit on the left side, but it was mostly fixed.

    I just went with a super thin line around the top and bottom of the lid, and then put a small flick off to either side. Something simple for today.

    I need to find someone who knows makeup (partner was never a girly girl and hated makeup) to sit down with and do some easier stuff. Honestly even a little bit I think might go a long way. I have a somewhat androgynous face and if it weren’t for my facial hair I’m wrangling with every day, I think I’d almost pass.

    I definitely started out trying to freehand the eyeliner but quickly gave up on that when my hand started trembling.

    Damn, I should just find someone to do a full makeover from the shoulders up on me and walk me through the process so I might be able to replicate it.