ignores wall of text to post my own thoughts

I noticed that I can be a bad friend, at times. Need to unload for hours, too impatient to listen, and when I do it out of politeness, I won’t pay attention.

With some friends, I suspect that they just have the pity to be like ChatGPT, like “That’s so relatable!”, “Wow, that IS an interesting day you had there!”, “So funny! Glad I missed South Park to listen to your much funnier ramblings!”

At times, I had a like-minded friend, and we would just take turns talking for roughly the same duration, like an unspoken agreement.

I have ADHD and ASD(this one is undiagnosed but pretty certain) and holy shit do they contradict. This meme reminds me of how I will develope a special interest or have an old one resurface that requires me to do a lot of reading and how heavily that conflicts with my inability to sit still and read long books. I’m trying to read capital right now and holy fucking shit the first few hundred pages are a drag. I’m told it becomes interesting later as everything starts connecting but getting to that point sucks ass.

It’s more like an immovable force vs an unstoppable object