lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]
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lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto History@hexbear.net•That time a Marine general led a fictional Iran against the US military – and wonEnglish28·1 day agoThe blue team literally prevented him from using tactics that americas enemies had already used against america. How do the military even call this a war game? Its more akin to a fantasy novel where the hero cant lose.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto Slop.@hexbear.net•‘Why some Jews denounce Israel and back Hamas’English4·5 days agoEven before that, Theodor Herzl, the founder of modern political Zionism, was termed by some as a self-hating Jew. Maybe because Herzl celebrated Christmas and even had a Christmas tree in his home.
Couldnt be because he said were made up of the waste parts of all other races, no, its because he had a christmas tree.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto effort@hexbear.net•Calling All Who Are Interested To A New Community For Discussions on Wealth InequalityEnglish9·6 days agoWe know how to take back their wealth:
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread from June 16th, 2025 to June 22nd, 2025English8·6 days agoUgh ikr!? Like, im slowly accepting that im probably autistic, and viewing this through that lens. And even when im the one disrupting the schedule its really upsetting and i need an hour or two to calm down, and it totally throws the rest of my day off and fucks up my mood and sometimes continues into the next day. And here it was someone else disrupting the schedule and like its ok they have needs that should be respected but also theres a part of me thats just screammmmmmiiiinnnggggg inside, cause i was looking forward to group time and really need to be around people who get me right now (and also cause ttrpgs are super fun) but also like fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck my entire evening and the only structure to my day today has been disrupteddddd and it suuuccckkkksssss.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread from June 16th, 2025 to June 22nd, 2025English11·6 days agoAhhhh i hate canceled plans its so upsetting when the schedule is disrupted ahhhhhh!!! Even when its me disrupting the schedule its really upsetting ahhhhh!!!
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto videos@hexbear.net•Weapons of Mass Destruction IIEnglish2·7 days agoNarrator: they were
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@hexbear.net•Trans Megathread from June 9th, 2025 to June 15th, 2025 - Susie Appreciation ThreadEnglish8·9 days agovent, meds, mh
So exhausted. So overwhelmed. So empty. All from nothing. Still unemployed. Living situation deteriorated. I just… I cant anymore. And ive been here before. So i know that I will. But i just cant. The fear. The anxiety. The paranoia. Non of it rooted in reality. The hunger. The disgust at food. The horror of meds. Ive been on them and off them and on them and off them. Different every time. Never right. Always never enough or too much. Im not on them right now. The only thing that addresses my (mild?) impulsivity is crippling anxiety that keeps me from doing anything. No one will help with the impulsivity because its hidden behind the anxiety. So they do the anxiety stuff. But then cant control my actions. I spend. And spend and spend and spend. I went off my meds when i started looking at used cars (cannot afford car rn) and ordering takeaway/delivery every day. Id rather have the crippling anxiety and constant low grade depression with occasional crashes into deep depressive episodes than blow everything and end up on the street. But now im back in the nothingness. Theres just… Nothing.
cw si
Cant i just be free? Cant i just leave? Cant i be done with this. I dont want to be here. Every day is painful. Or joyous. But then the joy leaves and the pain says hey you took a respite lets hit you extra hard now.
burnout, non-personhood, doomer
Through my life ive burned out a few times. First i tried to head-down-power-through it (that went well). Then i tried ignoring it and just scaling back a little (also went well). Then the last couple times ive just stopped earlier than i needed to in order to avoid the really bad-bad effects of burnout. But the one constant has been that every time ive dealt with burnout, ive never recovered my same level of functionality that i had before. Im effectively nonfunctional at this point. Im not even really a person. And i dont want to be. Im a NEET and have been for almost two years. Im immensely privilidged. And i see people who could do more with my resources. Who could actually live. Who would be able to get back on their feet. Im so thankful, but part of me just wants to send every drop of money in my bank acct to someone better than myself. Someone who could actually use it to live a life thats not constant pain. My body is trash. My brain is fucked. My heart is broken. I dont want to be here anymore. Im trying to start applying for jobs again, but who would hire someone who randomly gets laid up for weeks at a time with depressive episodes? How can I even begin moving forward? Ive failed my family, my friends, my roommates… There is no redemption that Im capable of doing.
cw si
My current plan is to just go as long as I can, and once the resources are all used up, take a walk to the bridge.
Is this what giving up looks like?
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto Movies & TV@hexbear.net•What episode is this?English7·10 days agoCheese episode
Cutting on people episode
Vore episode
Could be a lot of things
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto Main, home of the dope ass bear.@hexbear.net•About empathy for IsraelisEnglish48·10 days agoI just want to put this out there: from a haaretz poll, 31% of secular israelis believe that when an enemy city is captured, all inhabitants should be killed. That number only goes up as people get more orthodox.
Thats not to say they deserve the inhumane treatment they have visited upon palestinians to be visited upon them. But it is to say that never again is an incomplete sentence. It should read never again, by any means neccessary.
(cw sv) And ultimately, dying in a missile attack is far more humane than
being gangremovedd to death.
I dont know what dezionification should look like. But im pretty sure that if its done by the west it will look like denazification - that is to say, a small number of elites will be blamed and killed/imprisoned, and the people on the ground committing atrocities will walk free. Their children and grandchildren will receive zionist indoctrination, and no real education about why zionism is bad will take place.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto askchapo@hexbear.net•What does maturing and growing up mean to you? The widely agreed upon liberal definition of this is horrible so lets redefine thisEnglish4·10 days agoGonna say that “growing up” isnt a thing. We are all “children” in some ways and “adults” in others. Our growth is often nonlinear and we see “regression” all the time. We dont grow in the same directions either. Ive met people who arent even legally adults who have a better handle on some things than i do, and ive met people 30 years my senior who i have out-grown in some ways. The world is a cruel and traumatizing place, and it will determine how we have to grow. Our conditions will determine what we can learn, the best we can do is show up and learn it. Who is a grown up or who acts like a grown up will always be culturally determined, and therefore no absolute metric may ever be applied. The process of growing up will never be complete, and i will always be a so-called child in one way or another.
Tldr reject tradition embrace the constant struggle of personal growth free from cultural markers.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto Main, home of the dope ass bear.@hexbear.net•Tanks are officially rolling through the streets of Washington, D.C. Which brave American is ready to do the funniest thing of all time and become the American Tinyman Square Tank Man?English2·10 days agoIt was one of the first things i ever learned about the IOF beyond “oh they are the israeli military” and was the first thing that began radicalizing me against them. I remember thinking to myself “How any human being do that?”.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto Main, home of the dope ass bear.@hexbear.net•Tanks are officially rolling through the streets of Washington, D.C. Which brave American is ready to do the funniest thing of all time and become the American Tinyman Square Tank Man?English5·12 days agoIOF soldiers have celebrated the day of her death by making pancakes with her face on it.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto libre@hexbear.net•lem.el: Emacs client library and interface for Lemmy instances.English6·12 days agoOoh more lispy lemmy api bindings! Theres also a system for Common Lisp, do you know if theres one for scheme (maybe r7rs?)
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto askchapo@hexbear.net•When it comes to sex, what do you know about consent? Little things. Plus the big things that you feel everyone should know? Do you have tips for clearer communication too?English9·13 days agoSomething I dont see people talk very much about is the wheel of consent. I think its a very useful tool/framework for talking about what you want and how you want it. Broad strokes overview is thay it divides activities into two axis, touching vs being touched, and for your pleasure vs for your partners pleasure. These are broadly organized into giving and receiving. E.g. if im being touched for my partners pleasure, i am giving. Being touched for my pleasure, i am receiving. If im touching for my partners pleasure i am giving, for my pleasure receiving. The creator (betty something, forget her whole name) has some videos up thay get into the specifics and the nitty gritty of it. Her video on giving vs receiving is really useful IMO, because its one of the few places ive seen recognized the deep vulnerability needed to receive. Giving is easy, it doesnt require vulnerability to nearly the same extent.
Some of the most blatant transphobes ive met are gay men. Understanding one system of oppression doesnt mean you understand oppression.
And white queers have a massive racism problem. Just because you unlearn homo- and transphobia doesnt mean you understand racism. You can understand that black people are “just normal people too”. But that doesnt mean you understand racism. That doesnt mean you suddenly understand all the structural issues oppressing black and indigenous people and how you reinforce them every single day.
I mean, fuck, idk if youre trans and im preaching to the choir but unlearning internalized transphobia is a massive undertaking that is never done.
We exist in structurally racist, homophobic, and transphobic systems. That shit is constantly enforced and we are constantly exposed to it. If you are not constantly combatting it, then it will take hold, and you will internalize it.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto videos@hexbear.net•This skater kid ate dozens of munitions from Border Patrol agents, walked away slowly and flipped them off.English3·15 days agoNo in response to me talking about stalin and the development of industrial capacity which turned out to be pretty crucial to fighting nazis.
lilypad [she/her, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netto news@hexbear.net•The Israeli military has boarded the Freedom Flotilla Madleen and arrested the crewEnglish22·15 days agoHow is it an arrest? “Arresting” someone when you dont have jurisdiction is called kidnapping.
What over ears do you use? (Also i have big ears… Would they work for big ears?) having something that is usable all day would be wonderful