Thank you, I’m going through a lot rn, but I wanna kinda restart my life with my partner.

IDK if I wanna go back to university, I kinda wish I could but I still fear failing again. I’m 26 and I feel like the older I get the less likely it will be.

I have a lot to work on. I suspect I have ADHD but only been diagnosed with autism and anxiety.

And yes I plan a lot, I plan too much. Rarely planning works but I still overplan.

Thanks for your message. I appreciate it.

Knowing the answer to some of history’s biggest mysteries, because you were there, but being unable to speak about them because, 1, that would expose you, 2, nobody would believe you either way because nobody expects you to be THAT old.

Also, it is already frustrating seeing kids being dismissive or denying events that you yourself have lived. Imagine being thousands of years old and seeing so much shit, but those events are rarely retold, forgotten, or straight up denied by conspiracies or future governments that won’t admit their fault on it.

She usually does get conspiratorial. But I’ve experienced it weaponized against me. She thinks I dont have free will or free thinking. If I agree with her in something or do something she approves, its ok, but if I disagree or do anything she doesn’t approve of, then is because I must be being manipulated by someone else.

This was such a problem when I became a teenager and I started to defend myself because she said that “someone” must have been manipulating me to go against her.

She also use to think about the worst case escenario as the first option, like getting robed, mugged, killed, and is very distrustful. She also constantly think that people are conspiring to sabbotage her, including me.

One time as a teenager I left my phone at home and my dad called me, thats how she discovered I was in contact with him. And she berated me and called me a traitor and said I wanted to ruin her by conspiring with him. Inward just trying to her some connection to my dad but she was having non of it.

And also, if I was performing bad at university, must have been because I was doing drugs, because according to her “depression is for 12yos”.

Also she has became more religious in recent years, specially after my grandma died. She was never atheist or agnostic, but certainly not religious. Now she prays before leaving the house. And says that things goes well because the “Animas” are protecting us (I have no fucking idea of what Animas are, but some Catholics here believe in that, I think is like souls of our ancestors or something).

Thanks, yes I was suspecting on BPD. Thinking about it is what would make more sense alongside the narcissism.

Yes my sister is obsessed with appearances, so is our mom and so it was our gandma. She also defends my dad because, to her, he was a good stepfather. After she got into the US, she became the superficial white passing latina who can’t say anything bad about the US and everything back home must be terrible and horrible, and if we say things are going ok she takes it as a personal attack. idk if she might be narcissistic, we have almost nothing in common, so we don’t talk often.

Problem is I dont have actual AMOLED devices yet.

Holy shit

Some music is made by and for lowlifes, where I live is Vallenato, Campesina, Rancheras, Bachata, and 90%of reggaeton.

Lyrics about asking for forgiveness after cheating, smoking, domestic violent (being the one that does the domestic violence), admitting to spike drinks and brag about it, simping for drug Lords, and women are nothing but a sex object.

The people who listen to that music is just as you imagine them. Uneducated, sexist, wife beaters, going around in huge SUVs blasting that music outloud with no respect for anyone around then, they are the ones who start blasting the music at 1AM on a Wednesday and doesn’t let anyone sleep in their entire neighborhood.

People give me shit for this and claim is “culture” but I think there is such a thing as music for lowlifes.

bruh you dont understand irony lol.

Name of the song?

I guess I already know the answer but still need to process it. I think I still need measurement that I’m doing the right thing. Thank you. Yes I know I need to end things.

We don’t actually live together, I haven’t move in because he lives far away from my workplace and I live closer to it, and also because of the issues I told.

No, he doesn’t have keys to my house.

No, he doesn’t have guns (we don’t live in america).

Yes, he has been to the office I work at multiple times.

Yes, I have my own place.

Yeah I should. Thanks for the recommendation.

Yeah. Thats why im trying to get some more direct inspiration and not just get the classic Japanese style kind of powers.

Any kind of anime like powers inspired by a culture. For example. A bird man with incredible force Sun fueled powers, or a Woman can turn into a Snake, or a silent assasin that confuses their victims with their whistling.

Lawyers who has tried to use AI so far had lost their cases miserably.

I told a friend of mine I was making Mead and she told me that is not interested because Mead is not vegan. I really forgot that she was vegan and then I started thinking “People usually make fun of vegan food, but beer and wine can be considered vegan (with the exception people has already pointed out) and those are fun drink”

I’m not sure how well known it might be, is when you take a The Onion article seriously.

Thank you!

Cool. So nice to hear. Congratulations.

“… and then he told me I should be a stay at home wife, and I accepted, we had 5 kids after we initially agreed to only have one but he pressured me, we moved to his hometown where I knew no one, he controlled all of my finances, after 12 years of marriage I confronted him for cheating on me but he always denied it, until I found his second family but I couldn’t leave him because I had no money of my own and lived far away from my family, then he became physically abusive and telling me that I was nothing without him, I needed help to leave him but im still fighting in court over child support and shared custody, but he is now with his third family and refuses to pay for nothing, I should have left him a long while ago but I couldn’t see the red flags and even my family thought at the time it was a bad idea to marry him but they knew I wouldn’t listen because I was 20 and naïve”

I’ve seen so many cases with different variations.