I wish I were eligible to participate in this trade u_u
Unfortunately this body I’m in is ugly and neglected because decades of suppressed dysphoria have dissociated me from it so hard that I stopped seeing it as mine and even being reminded that it existed stressed me out. I, unfortunately, eat my stress. And you all know how awful American food is.
Plus even if I married anyone, I’m so disconnected from my own existence in dirtspace that even if they sat in this body’s lap I’d feel no closer to them than while they’re on the other side of the planet, let alone a mere ocean. Hell, I’m in a long distance relationship with MY OWN BODY x_x
i care about too much shit already x_x i’m trying to free up the headspace to do something about this, and keep telling myself that no matter how Sisyphean the task feels, maybe i can get good at pushing the boulder…
There is a quote like ‘there is no trying, only doing’.
The nice thing of the body is that when you use it, it gets better. You will get good at pushing the boulder. Without knowing your situation, I would like to say: Grab a jacket and go for the shortest walk possible.
I wish I were eligible to participate in this trade u_u
Unfortunately this body I’m in is ugly and neglected because decades of suppressed dysphoria have dissociated me from it so hard that I stopped seeing it as mine and even being reminded that it existed stressed me out. I, unfortunately, eat my stress. And you all know how awful American food is.
Plus even if I married anyone, I’m so disconnected from my own existence in dirtspace that even if they sat in this body’s lap I’d feel no closer to them than while they’re on the other side of the planet, let alone a mere ocean. Hell, I’m in a long distance relationship with MY OWN BODY x_x
How do you feel about starting to care? You could go for a walk.
i care about too much shit already x_x i’m trying to free up the headspace to do something about this, and keep telling myself that no matter how Sisyphean the task feels, maybe i can get good at pushing the boulder…
There is a quote like ‘there is no trying, only doing’.
The nice thing of the body is that when you use it, it gets better. You will get good at pushing the boulder. Without knowing your situation, I would like to say: Grab a jacket and go for the shortest walk possible.